Monday, October 25, 2004
A Mother's Thoughts
Hi, how’s everyone? Thanks for your support.
Well, I’m Annie, Pedro’s mom. Today he has asked me to write a message in his Blog to tell you about how a mom feels of having a son in jail.
I felt that my life gave me a hard hit. I wondered “why is life so hard on me... why all the obstacles in my way?” I felt my heart stripping and a deep pain in my chest that choked me. I pinched myself to see if it was all true or if I was having a horrible nightmare.
As a mother I felt I was missing a part of my life. It was hard to accept that my son would be incarcerated for so many years.
Then, I got closer to God, for there is nothing without Him and I asked him “my God, protect this being for whom I pray so much, for whom I implore you so much.” And God, like a loving Father, let peace into my heart and I know that my son is comforted, although sometimes as a mother I feel he has his moments of sadness which he knows how to overcome. I feel really proud of him, because he has known how to better himself despite this situation and to value his family even more. I know that we will all soon be together once again.
I wish to share with you this poem I wrote once after visiting Pedro (in April of 2004). During this visit I felt a quiet sadness in him. I titled it “Deep Sadness.”
Sincerely,
Annie Robles
Quiet Sadness
The visit ends,
our good-bye begins.
It is a hard moment
that I do not wish to prolong.
He walked crestfallen
trying to hide his woe;
but as a mother
I felt it all as well.
A deep sadness in his eyes
invaded with bitterness his heart.
He remained sitting there,
looking anxiously,
wishing in his soul
he could leave, too.
Oh!... what a huge pain
I feel in my chest.
A last look at my son
tore my soul to pieces...
- A. Robles -
Well, I’m Annie, Pedro’s mom. Today he has asked me to write a message in his Blog to tell you about how a mom feels of having a son in jail.
I felt that my life gave me a hard hit. I wondered “why is life so hard on me... why all the obstacles in my way?” I felt my heart stripping and a deep pain in my chest that choked me. I pinched myself to see if it was all true or if I was having a horrible nightmare.
As a mother I felt I was missing a part of my life. It was hard to accept that my son would be incarcerated for so many years.
Then, I got closer to God, for there is nothing without Him and I asked him “my God, protect this being for whom I pray so much, for whom I implore you so much.” And God, like a loving Father, let peace into my heart and I know that my son is comforted, although sometimes as a mother I feel he has his moments of sadness which he knows how to overcome. I feel really proud of him, because he has known how to better himself despite this situation and to value his family even more. I know that we will all soon be together once again.
I wish to share with you this poem I wrote once after visiting Pedro (in April of 2004). During this visit I felt a quiet sadness in him. I titled it “Deep Sadness.”
Sincerely,
Annie Robles
The visit ends,
our good-bye begins.
It is a hard moment
that I do not wish to prolong.
He walked crestfallen
trying to hide his woe;
but as a mother
I felt it all as well.
A deep sadness in his eyes
invaded with bitterness his heart.
He remained sitting there,
looking anxiously,
wishing in his soul
he could leave, too.
Oh!... what a huge pain
I feel in my chest.
A last look at my son
tore my soul to pieces...
- A. Robles -

